Even through all the heartache, I declare to choose joy. In 2015, I became pregnant with my first child. Oh, how I loved that pregnancy. That pregnancy was full of happiness, full of 0 stress, no anxiety, and was truly joyous. I had the nursery done before I was even halfway through my pregnancy and had all the things ready. The moments were full of sunshine and rainbows and I just couldn’t wait to be a mom. Then came 2017. The year that forever changed me. The year that I learned that pregnancy